Not much to talk abt the day, instead lots of feelings & thoughts. woke up in the noon & went out to eat lunch nearby w dad & mom & went jusco to have a walk & bought somethings but all none of my business. then came home i did chinese exercises from mom myself since hol hmwk all finished. then started com-ing. then dinner & then came back to com & msn & now here.

But sometime ago, i've read xin lin's post & sadly got influenced by her thought (or hers + hung's thought) that the class in no longer that close, & meeting is just like being strangers. simply going back or not is something to be considered, but no longer the "OF COZ!"

I've thought of that long ago, & the post reminds me of it. last yr perhaps, was when i thought & i was worrying that the class unity is falling apart before i get to go back to aps. & sadly the thought is coming true, & now my prediction is tat, ppl still go back, but as "Long time no see Strangers". talking topics are limited, few enough to be counted w fingers...... & next yr, perhaps half a class isnt showing up. or perhaps it's not tat bad, but as many said, once randy leaves the sch, theres nth much left memorable. what a man... what a fact...

I know some ppl still meet in v small groups, some in the same sch such as deyi ppl, louise went jen's house... (hpnd i rang her up once in 3 months when she was there) some meet in shopping malls or live near... while some, of coz, keith & bryan see each other everyday. some aren't in v gd relationship now, u know who u r. the saddest thing is - u feel like meeting up, but the thing is when u meet up, what to say !? what to do !? get a cup of coke & sit down say "hi" "err" "err" "yea" "u?" "think so..." "bye." like that ? or simply "hi" & walk on?

i've been having dreams, not those dreams to accomplish but those u make at night. i hardly have one, yet this hol i've been having them so frequently. i've dreamed of a meet up scene, i saw sq & i hugged him, i saw yumeng & i sabo her (YAY) , i saw twins & their first sentence is a crap joke, i saw girls coming & i decided to use the GTA cheat code for max sex appeal - "HELLO LADIES!" i saw hung & we hit our palms & so on... yet there's a worse version - simply, "hi" & silence... we crapped arnd & bye within half an hr. we had nth better to do & suggested a walk at a mall or wadeva, yet separated soon. so which one is coming true? nvm... i ain't there anyway.

being there this yr is nth but impossible. my only hope, ONLY CHANCE is next yr. b4 or after, perhaps not... even free thinkers like me who's conceited enough to think that i myself is god will pray to god that i can be in sgp next yr... so far i influenced sq & we both got emo out of it, while yumeng seems unaffected... optimistic enough. & i would say shan quan's right, "No one can make this negative thought positive again." BUT, i never thought jeremy's words could be SO RIGHT - THE CLASS BLOG ACCOMPLISH NOTHING. yes, look at wat it's like now, dead ? & wat we're like, strangers? it didnt accomplish anything. now not anyone even rmb its password. how pathetic. rmb the song randy played ? 朋友 by 周华建, i still have the song. but i think the cantonese song 最佳损友 is more emo for this. oh gosh... right now my playlist comes to the soundtrack 脚踏车 of jay & i finally understand wats so sad abt it tat sq can think & [DROP A FEW TEARDROPS]...

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